My Why?

Every day, I remind myself how finite life is. I need to have this perspective to start living a fulfilling lifestyle. I consistently remind myself that every second my clock is ticking. I do not know when it will expire, but I use this knowledge to help me thrive in the present moment. I embrace every experience and learn from the situations I may face.

In my early years, I experimented with drugs and alcohol, and I allowed other people’s opinions to define me when they had no idea who I was. My family’s suggestions on what I should do or be took over, which left me feeling empty inside, always searching for who I was. I’ve lost everything during Hurricane Harvey, which was the fifth time. I had nothing. The following year, I almost lost both of my parents. My father ended up passing, but my mother recovered. I am so thankful. Then, COVID happened, and I was out of work for about a year and a half. My wife and I lost two children in the process of finally conceiving.

I share this with you not for you to feel bad for me or to pray for me. I share this with you to show you that through our turmoil, there is light, and through our challenges comes growth. Life is always changing, and when we try to find a reason or answer, it steals from our only truth: NOW. Until I started to learn about myself and understand what created these feelings, change was not possible for me. Our childhood experiences shape us into who we are in adulthood, but we are the creators, and we must learn that everything is teaching us.

I continue to heal and grow and share my tools and resources. I am open with who I am so that I can be the support I once needed during the times I lost in the darkness. Trust me, though, no one is coming to save you. You must do the work. I am here to help guide and support in any way possible. It will take determination and consistency, but it can be done. I love you. I love you so much that I work on myself to show by example